Perfect

When I think about my mom, the first word that pops into my head is "PERFECT".  Now I know that nobody is "perfect" but honestly she was the closest thing to perfect that I can think of, besides Jesus of course.  When she died a big part of me went with her.  She was EVERYTHING to me.  She still is.  She is my first thought in the morning and my last before I fall asleep at night.  I miss so many things about her.  She would always make me feel better no matter what was happening in my life.  All I had to do is see her and everything was ok again.  She was the most selfliss person I have ever known...  She always put everyone else before herself.  I actually have a lot of guilt about that.  Even on her death bed, she showed no fear. I was bawling and asked her if she would hold me and, from her bed she just rubbed my head and told me that she was going to be alright. Even tho things were so bad, I still didn't believe that she was going to die.  I could never except it and wouldn't alow my mind to go there.  I just couldn't.  My life has truly turned upside down since she has been gone but the Good Lord is seeing me thru!  I just hold on the the fact that I WILL get to see her again and be with her FOREVER!  It is truly amazing how one person can have such and impact on your life.  She was truly sent from God to be the best mom in the world and she fullfilled her duty.  This is why I know that when she got to Heaven she heard the words :  "Well Done my Good and Faithful Servant".

I LOVE YOU MOMMA!